GROWING UP!!! GROWING UP!!

Growing up is such a sweet experience. Being a kid was so much fun. The innocent doubts and a simple life. When Maths was all about 1 to 100, and English meant A to Z, and science was only about the living and non living..!! My mind takes me to all those silly stupid moments that make me wish I could go back in life.

Most of us as kids always had questions on how we came into this world, and some of us were told that we were selected by our parents out of a few kids shown by God, while others thought they are God’s special gift… lol: D

For most of the little girls like I remember about myself, playing kitchen set and being someone’s wife, cooking food was the best game to play. Alas!! Now its no more a game!!! : P

Funnier it is to remember that I used to think that the actors are small puppets fixed inside the idiot box, and act differently as soon as the channel is changed. :D

And the time when I used to call all my friends as ‘ tu toh meri behen/ bhai  hai’,  somehow now its more appealing to call my siblings  my friends. :D

And of course the first day of our school, I bet no1 went there with a smiling face, only to grow up and realize that it was the bestest place ever.

All of us I am sure always wanted to become mummy and papa at 3 yrs, teacher at 10 years, and a doctor or engineer at 15, only been able to realize at 20 what we can really become and get confused when we finally have jobs !! :D

The didis and bhaiyas , those wearing formals with office bags left us with the dreams of growing old, only to realize it sucks in actual!! The school bags and jholas were better than the formal handbags!!!

And sometimes when the greatest dream I had was to own an expensive set of Artoons sketch pens which has now converted into diamonds and watches!!!

Those were the times when going to Mc D’s was an event to boast, although now it’s like a roadside dhaba for most of us. And the family dinners were the best parties we thought we could have!!

When birthday parties meant wearing my best frock, eat chips, cake and samosa, gift a pencil box and return back home!! :D

It was too easy to scare me with a weird horn from a crossing car, or a barking dog, and the showpiece that I thought could eat me!!!  The perception about the Ghosts and the ghost talks were weird and interesting then!!

I remember telling my mum that I am jealous of her coz she doesn’t have to study!!! :D now I can understand perhaps at that time she herself too wanted to swap lives with me :D

It was cute to pool in 20 bucks each with two of my cousins to drink the “Kanche waali bottle”, and natkhat and fatafat, I miss those days!! Neither the bottles nor the prices are same now!!

When even a thought of staying without my parents for a day bought tears only to grow up in life and realize the importance of so called space in life which actually gets suffocating at times.. !! K

The simplicity of life then looks so appealing to me as I now know it only gets complicated, and the chains are getting multiplied!!! If only I could be a little girl again, my parents little angel!! 

LESSONS IN LIFE- SO FAR SO GOOD

Of the life I have lived so far, with parents, family, best friends, friends, neighbors, colleagues, teachers, bosses, with the faces I see everyday while walking through the streets. Experiences that I had, with the ones I love, with the ones I ‘loved’, with the ones I can’t stand, with the ones I meet everyday, the ones I watch on the streets with a utensil in hand.  There are lessons I have learnt, some of them are still in my memory, some of them out of my mind.

Out of the things that I have realized over time, there is one thing about the two people who brought you into this world; they are the ones you really belong to, whoever you are in life you owe to them. It’s amazing how at times they give their own portion to us just to makes us happy. The term unconditional love suits to only these two people in your life. They are your Mum and Dad.

 A brother, a sister, a sibling probably younger to you will act like an elder, and teach you stuff that might amaze you. I owe such advises to my younger brother..!!

Out of bunch of very close friends that you have perhaps since childhood, there would be someone who would for sure once in a lifetime break your trust, sometimes too much to teach you never to trust again.

In life you would meet someone who would become the most special person in your life, suddenly from just a stranger, person would teach you too many things, good ones, bad ones, naughty ones, emotional ones. Someone who would mean the world to you and one fine day that person would become your most familiar stranger.

 There would be times in life capable enough to make you feel weakest, out of all the times I remember, and I know happened to me, there is always a lot of strength you have inside you to move on and fight back with a smile.  The strength lies within.

Sometimes a sudden movie plan, a dish cooked with unknown recipe, a random trip, an unplanned outing, with your friends, roomies, parents, colleagues, and loved one becomes the most memorable moment in your life. And you realize that best things in life come unplanned. I owe many such moments to Notty buds, my brother, my roomies, and myself.

While walking on the streets I often end up comparing myself with the richest of the lot, just when I see a 2 year old begging barefoot, a 60 year old without legs, its then that I realize how rich I really am. I am one of those privileged ones who can make a life on my own, one of the lucky ones whom God loves just so much. I am indeed blessed!!

Taking my memory to the time when I struggled, faced rejections, fell down several times, lost somewhere tracking what I really need, and ultimately getting what I really thought of someday, I don’t even remember when, I realized that just like everything in the world, even the good times and bad times have an expiry date.

Someone in life will care for you just like you always dreamt, but still from somewhere inside you will have the courage to ignore that person. And sometime later, your ignorance will be felt like one of your greatest mistakes.

Of the friends you’d have, there will always be someone, a he or a she, whom you will always forgive, stay connected, trust, share secrets, call at 4a.m despite of the fact that he/she would ignore you for a nap, no matter what one such friend will always be your best of buddies. I owe such expressions to one of my school friends.

Of the friends I met in college there is one, I am sure everyone has, who is never sure, and never on time, and despite of all the irritating habits this one friend will still be close to you.  And there would be one from a category who would understand you till he\she goes through the same. And another one who would always be you guide, a mentor, someone with whom you would hate to fight. I owe this one to Notty buds.

And since I am now a part of working population, I am sure there is and there would always be one human who wont leave a chance to exaggerate the little mistakes you make, to scare when the targets aren’t met, and expect you to be as good as the CEO when you are still a new kid on the block. I owe it to all the bosses I met so far and would meet in the near future.

And till now of all the good things, bad things, sweet things, sour things, nasty things, unfortunate and fortunate events, I just know there is something called life that always moves on.

Too often…

Too often we are scared to loose someone,

Too often we wish that someone would stay a little longer,

Too often when it rains outside, we wish to be with someone special,

Too often we wait just for a glimpse,

Way too often someone is missed,

Sometimes when the phone rings,

How we pray it’s a special call,

How badly at times we need someone,

Oh dear someone!! Are u there?

Too often do we ask them…

Too often we forget who we are,

Too often we are known as a part of them,

Too often we loose ourselves for someone,

And too often they become the world to us,

Too often and when it gets too late,

We seek ourselves,

Too often we wish we were desired too,

Often too late, not so soon,

We look into the mirror to love ourselves

Too seldom too late

We wish someone doesn’t come back,

Too late we realize we are made so strong,

Way too far as we move ahead,

We look within us to find the strength

Often too late it’s for good,

And slowly ‘the someone’ does not exist,

Often so soon we are in love with ourselves,

Beautiful and sweet those days are back,

Without a single string attached,

When every expectation is dead,

Oh it’s beautiful to be in love with yourself,

Too often we don’t realize,

That someone only makes you weak,

Often too late, the strength is within

The Journey That Was...

To the people I met,

To the friends I made,

To my mentors and to my guides,

To the beautiful Journey as it was,

Its time to bid a goodbye,

With dreams in our eyes,

And a little sigh,

Its time to flee,

The gates are ready to set us free,

No more exams and no more fees,

I wonder who I will now tease,

And what about those stupid talks

Lazy mornings and evening walks

Strolling on the pathway, sitting in the lawns,

Listening to the funniest of songs,

In troubled times when something went wrong,

Trying to make each other strong,

The bonds we built, the tears we spilled,

Apologies we felt and the thank Yous we said,

The gossips that spread,

Friendships put in a delicate thread,

Two years flashed like a shooting star,

How come its time to go so far!!

Life outside is another war,

We are set to chase another dream,

its almost time to say goodbyes,

With tears in my eyes, you will be missed,

Cheers again!!

To the people I met,

To the friends I made,

To my mentors and to my guides,

To the beautiful Journey as it was..

Memories

I am no more yours and u r no more mine,

Still your memories haunt me all the time,

Running thru my spine, Is the feel of your hand

Why does the time flow like sand?

So sweet like an angel u made me feel,

Just like a princess and a beautiful fairy tale,

For this day and hence m happy I met u,

Ur love flows through me still so fresh,

I m not sad n m not crying,

For u still love me and there is no denying,

Your gifts are just like a life dose,

Some of them I keep so close,

The meetings that I wish lasted long,

The time when u sang that beautiful song,

How your hugs dried my tears,

You loved me with my worst of fears,

Meeting u was a part of good luck,

Separation is a part that sucks

How true it was how true it is,

But I am no more yours and you are no more mine,

But the sweet memories haunt me all the time

Hope Still Alive

I dreamt of you in the day and in the night,

I want hold you so tough and tight,

Whether it is dark or whether it is light,

You will always find me standing right beside,

Together we had a world of our own,

Dreams and fights, smiles and frowns,

Suddenly those dreams...where have they gone...

We dreamt of us we dreamt of a home,

We dreamt of two little babies we thought we would make,

We shared our love in the form of hugs,

My smiles were yours and your tears were mine,

When every girl u saw looked like me,

When a single sneeze gave you fright,

Where is that love and where are those times,

Those promises and those happy times,

I had heard that true love never dies,

Then where are u my sweetie pie…

Was it that u were lying? Why do you leave me crying?

To meet u n see u my heart is dying

Come and hold me and I’ll make u mine,

Come to me take my fears,

Let’s be one and make our lives shine,

Until u come my heart will pine...

It’s just a dream I am seeing I know,

I know you won’t come to me...

I wonder

Where are those dreams those days...?

I wonder if you will miss me one day...

I wish you say it to me some time

That dear love I miss you all the time….

I don’t know why but the hope is alive…

Loving you is easy, Missing You is Hard

Gazing into the darkness of my room,

Somewhere in the middle of the night,

 My little room looks much bigger,

 I look around,

 When I search for something,

 I ask myself about what is missing,

 I close my eyes and see u smiling,

 Flashes of the days past,

 Memories so sweet,

 I leave them behind me and wander ahead,

 Still wondering what’s holding me back,

 Ur Face, ur eyes still capturing my sight,

 Ur voice that says please don’t part,

 I know my baby it tears ur heart,

 If only I could,

 I would hold the time,

 I wish I could move back in life,

 To see u again that very first time,

 To hold u close yet another day,

 If I only I could

 I would look into ur eyes,

 Once again and forever this time,

 If only I could,

I wish I could only rewind,

 The time when I saw u for the first time…..